Buddhism doesn't ask you to be a monk!

Buddhism doesn't ask you to be a monk. It clearly offers different set of moral conducts for different persons. For ordinary lay people there are five precepts, for the ardent devotees there are eight precepts, for the novice monks there are ten precepts and for fully ordained monks there are 227 precepts. 

Well these precepts are somewhat like a doctor's prescription, don't eat cholesterol food, don't drink, don't smoke and so on. Likewise, Buddha prescribed these things for our sake as a safeguard. If we violate any of these rules, we will be the sufferer one day in this very life and eventually in after life.

I think most of the people think that to follow Buddhism, you will need to shave your head, get a yellow robe and meditate under a tree. Well, that's not absolutely true. During Buddha's time, there were millions of devotees who were not monks but ordinary lay people. If you think that you are all right with your ordinary possessions and you are happy, then fine, you don't need to be a bald head wearing some yellow robes. That's perfect because you can still follow the five precepts. And hypothetically the other thing is, if everyone becomes a monk, then who would serve them food, clothes, medicine and other amenities. So if you don't wish, then don't. 

However, sometimes some uneasiness arises within your mind. Your heart shakes by the death of your close person. You fear that someday you will depart from your close ones. When things go wrong, you become depressed and sad. I can tell, you are experiencing the truth, that everyone in one's life time will have to face it. So now if you want to make an end of it, then go ahead, perhaps now is the time to be a bald head wearing yellow robes, yeah.